What GOD wants with me is a relationship, a relationship of love, trust, reliance, dependence. When I want that also, I move into a new realm–a place of unbelievable dimensions and a new way of operation. However . . . what I usually want is stuff. As long as I want stuff, when GOD wants HIS kind of relationship, we are neither one satisfied. I rail against GOD, and HE waits for my childish tantrums to cease and my hunger to grow to the point that our desires coincide. Then when I have a desire for a relationship of love, trust reliance, dependence I discover that a true relationship is work. more later . . .