The relationship GOD has called me into with HIM is not one that I define. That’s a good thing, but it frustrates me. Why? Because I think and I feel and I want, sometimes, a different relationship that what HE wants. I want one where HE is there when and I need HIM and want HIM, but otherwise HE is just in the background waiting for my call. I want HIM to listen to me, but to only speak when I want HIM to. I want HIM to judge those I think are my enemies, but to always have mercy on me. I want HIM to move when I say and at my speed. It sometimes drives me crazy that I am in a relationship with the CREATOR of the universe and my SAVIOR who has ALWAYS EXISTED, KNOWS EVERYTHING, and has ALL POWER, and HE will not do things my way. Sometimes, however, I surrender and love and trust HIM and then I am glad HE is in control of this relationship. At those times I have HIS peace and I am truly content. I make our relationship difficult.